right thennnnnnnnnnnnnn

TODAY!
is gonna be a happy day, i dont even care!
as for all the wankers who are too immature to talk to me? i have now decided to not bother about you anymore.
you could say, i'm finally putting myself before others. selfish bitch.


so yeahh, yesterday was my dads birthday, hes now 52 (i think) and i had to drop him to heathrow airport, no hes not going somewhere lovely with white sand beaches. hes on a business trip....to germany and i have to get him tomorrow at around 2pm at heathrow again. fun times paying extortionate prices for a parking ticket when im not even going to be there long. ¬_¬
so before seeing my dad yesterday i went to physio for the first time at 8am, always nice when you went to bed the night before at 2.30am... and well basically this physiotherapist said, carry on with pilates and swimming, and though she didnt say this, her body language pretty much said, i cant be bothered to treat you.
nicee. so i still have a bad back that will probably be like this till the rest of my life.


work today! woo hoo...no seriously. i get to see my lil aggy :D havent seen her for ages and when you generally see her 3/4 times a week, its been hard haha. i havent dieted because i didnt go to the gym with her and yeah i also get weighed tomorrow at 10....5 stone being put on? probably.


SATURDAY is my friend sams birthday thingy in southend. thats about a 40 minute journey from where i live, what with the speed cameras. we're going to a posh restaurant, anddd&& the southend posh casino which has a club and bar attached, time to get drunk i think :D
only problem is i finish work at 6...and theyre going up there at around 3 i think so i text wesley yesterday asking if he could start earlier so i can go earlier, but no reply. :(
funny how you help people but they never want to return the favour eh? ;) i do love him lots though ha.
so yeahh, then im back on sunday to go straight to work to do a 3-f.
man i need to travel....

you guys dont even understand how depressed I'm feeling recently.

1) I'm gonna be fat forever no matter how hard I try.
2) I'm never gonna settle down with anyone cos there's no one interested.
3) I've lost half, no majority of my friends in the past,present due to me being a complete dickhead.
4) Everyone is settling down and planning they're future, but me, I just feel so lonely :(

I need to get away...

rant over....

bad times :(

i've found out something terrible the last two days....

my friend lee isnt coming to cyprus with me on holiday this year, turns out his work won't let him and they apparently have no recollection of him booking it off. LIARS!
im so distraught, it was originally, myself, lee, my mum, her best friend gill, gills husband steve, my nan and grandad and gills friend debbie.
but now no lee, so now i have to decide whether to go with just family and friends or not at all.
either way lee has lost his deposit, but sigh, im so upset.
does anyone want to come?! i've asked a few who i think can afford it but turns out no one can :(

:(

plus a boy whos given me a lot of trouble recently, isnt speaking to me for some reason...
i havent done anything wrong so why the silent treatment? maybe i deserve all this horrible luck recently.

ahhhh.

i had work today, and my god do i ache from yesterdays workout with Agnes!

tomorrow: 

weight watchers at 10 to get weighed (fingers crossed ive lost)

then pilates at 1, boxercise at 6 and then at 7.30 aqua aerobics!!

all this work better be worth it, if im not a size 10-12 by july im having surgery haha!

work.

sooo i had work today at 6pm.
i work in wetherspoons to those of you who do not know and i was out by 10pm.
it was a good shift :)


cannot wait till thursday on my day off so me and my lil aggy can go job centre, and then
go to pilates, boxercise and then aqua aerobics.
we are gonna be so fit for the summer :D

oh haiiiiiii

So this is my first EVER blog that i have here, where the hell do i startttt?

SO...

my name is robyn (hi) and yeahh lets get this blog starteddddd!